♥ Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I hope my bf will see those logos below...& only know how much he means to me...He is my everything... Losing him will make me feel as if this world had been depopulated... Knowing him has been the best gift from God...I thank God for that...
However, these past few weeks & months has not been easy at all...For both you & I..U could only imagine how alone & empty life is without you...These 2 weeks were the hardest for me,
not only could I not see U for 2 weeks but hardly heard ur voice...& the silence for 4 days not
knowing how u were just worried me & saddened me..I know outfield must have been tough
& every boy goes through it more or less except for the fortunate ones of course...
Through it all we've gone through this toughest phase together nothing deterred us away from
the focal point of just Love.. Love alone didn't just help take us through this.. It was courage,
strength & determination on both our parts that helped us. & in the next phase after ur BMT
will be a continuous test on our relationship the test of endurance..
I am relieved at the fact it's gonna be a little more relaxed after that.. hopefully U will also get to
book out on friday nights...That would be great..
But whatever the shit is I'll stand by U baby! For sake of us & our future happiness that awaits us I'm hanging on...I want one else but U! & I'm sure you alrdy know that...
Hearing your voice today finally after so long just stirred emotions within me..I was confused with what I was feeling for a second..I felt overwhelmed like I wanted to cry..yet felt frustrated..
It was just so hard for me to express it that when I do it usually turns out wrongly...I tend to agitate u further or say spiteful things to U to hurt U...really wonder why I do that..Maybe the one i'm frustrated at is myself! I'm so sorry Baby.. but Whatever it is never doubt my sincerity
& devotion towards U! that has never changed...
Lastly sweetie, do look forward to your Birthday okie? cos i'm looking forward to it so much!!
I hope U will have a great time...& I'm having a great time as long as I can be with u...thats all I want..
Hugs & Kisses to u my love...xoxo-
Your Princess-armygirlfriend. LOL.